Sunday, May 29, 2011

As I try to fill my time with interesting and restful things to do I wonder how my post could be interesting.  Then I realized that I am 4 days away from my due date and the arrival of this baby has me wound up with anticipation.  So Im guessing that others are equally as excited to know what the heck is going on.
Today was such a great day.  I had energy, I got sleep last night, we went for a lovely walk this morning. The last few days have been a little different.  Ive felt a little sulky, very tired and bored.  Even though I have been sewing dresses and bibs and other fun things,cooking and nesting,  I just want to do a little more to distract myself.  But it's fine.  Im really trying to relish my time with baby and love all the changes that are happening to get me ready for this birth.
So today I really nested.  I organized, I installed the diaper sprayer on the toilet, made room for baby to be here.  I listened to Louise Hay who reminded me to not be fearful but to be curious.  And I am.  It seems I need to hear those words to remind me that I am indeed very curious about my experience.  That no matter what it will be one of my life's most beautiful and mind-body-soul altering experiences and I get to participate fully and knowingly.
So soon.  So Soon.
I go to the midwife on Weds. which is our due date.  So unless I go into labor before then or if you don't see a post for awhile you'll know why.
I love you all.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Have you ever been a part of a collective poem?  One person writes a line, the next writes something that goes along with it.  the next person writes off of what the second person wrote, not knowing what the first person wrote.  each person folds the paper over so that the next person only sees one line from which they gather inspiration from.  Its a little hard to explain. But in the end it is so beautiful...everytime! I just remembered that the first one i was involved in was in Austin.  Sitting on the front porch drinking mimosas with the gang.  That poem was a funny one...I probably still have it somewhere.
Here is the collective poem some girlfriends wrote for me.

Full moon mama, glows, reflects light from the other side
She carries inside of her the baby she’s always known
Wrapped tight and warm inside her cozy womb
What does the divine entrust in her?
A wonderous life, a blossoming seed
The beginning of the universe
The entirety of life itself
Breath, love and challenges. Moving in the cycle of life.
Walking through the grass we find our way
Never stumbling-our path has already been chosen
We may rejoice and receive our gifts
Surrounded by the ones we love
And may you always, always trust in you and in the world.
The women in your life will hold you, guide you and love you deeply.
Another face, another stage, another cycle into true womanhood
The world is in need of your contribution…a fresh breath
So simple-breath in suffering, exhale love and peace
The new person to come your greatest creation
To unfold the mystery of life’s paths yet untrod

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Im it a sign that labor is coming when I eat more than humanly possible in one sitting? Surprisingly, I ate the biggest meal of my pregnancy tonight.  Yellow curry at a Thai was soo good, I just couldnt stop eating.  Then I came home and made my mom's homemade hot fudge and put it over ice cream.  And no one is stopping me.  Not even the baby.  No least not yet.  YUMMY.
It must have been all the planting we did today.  A friend and I planted all the flowers.  THANK YOU SPRING!  It was a perfect day for planting, Overcast, drizzly, the soil was nice and moist.  And now we just get to watch it all grow.  I am thrilled.  Its all coming together at all the right times.  Ill take some photos when the sun comes out.  Hopefully this week.
It will be such a joy to see how all the flowers mature.  It will be quite a sight if they all bloom together.  I know there are a lot of seasoned gardeners out there who have beautiful perennial beds of fleurs...this is my first straight up flower garden.  mmmmmm...Yummy
I have one more delicious bit to share.
This past weekend my dear friends organized a pamper Carissa and baby day.  I guess something like a baby shower, blesssing.  Oh was it glorious.  If the details of a luxurious and amazingly sweet event bore you stop here.
Otherwise Im going on and on to say that I am so lucky to have such wonderful friends who celebrated this baby experience with me.  As Allegra said so eloquently, this is an experience in life that must be celebrated much like marriage.  A rite of passage in a woman's life.  That day i felt like a queen.  Pampered, loved and more loved.  I was just so sorry that I couldnt have had ALL my nearest and dearest there with me.  You know who you are.  AND I LOVE YOU.
So now I feel a little more prepared to bring a child into the world.  I am, truth be told a little nervous about labor but feeling good, make that great, otherwise.  Thank you to all who have helped to make this pregnancy as easy as it has been.  And for sending us the necessary supplies for this sweet babe. I feel really lucky.
Im starting to get tired and need to rest so I will sign off now.

Monday, May 9, 2011

We Are Almost There!

Here we are!  Just about 37 weeks and all seems to be going well.  Im having contractions about every 5-6-7 minutes but nothing has changed cervix wise so the midwife is not worried.  This baby will come when ready and at this point that could be any day.
I'm a mixture of excited and nervous, but in general I just feel good and patient and BIG.  Im sorry I dont have a recent photo but I will work on it.  But Imagine normal sized me with a basketball under my shirt.  Of course a bigger behind and some chunk in my arms...unescapable in pregnancy.
This weekend a bunch of friends are coming over to the garden site to plant out all the flowers.  I am very happy about this since I cannot even bend down to tie my shoes.  I will be taking pictures.  I am so lucky to have such a wonderful group of friends to help me do this.
So stay tuned for photos and big news...its happening!
I also wanted to wish all the lovely mothers and mothers to be a belated Happy Mother's Day...I wasn't so much up for celebrating yesterday but you all were on my mind.  I feel so grateful to be joining the ranks of the wise and laboured in our world.  And Momma...thanks for helping through!  I love you.